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He sits quietly between me and his father, staring straight ahead as I attempt to engage him. I ask him if he\u2019s happy to be here at the Trenton planetarium for their holiday laser light show, and I get nothing back, neither eye contact nor the glimmer of a smile. I settle back in my chair and deal with his brother who is both cranky and tired, and within a few minutes, the music and magic begin.<\/p>\n
And my boy is transformed.<\/p>\n
As the first notes of \u201cRudolph\u201d ring out Justin begins to rock back and forth (we get there early so he can sit in the back row and rock out to his heart\u2019s content), gracing me with the slightest glimmer of a smile. His movements really ramp up as the chipmunk song comes on, a staple of the show. I see him lean over and smile at his grandma as he does every year, and we both swear he remembers this is the first movie he ever saw on the big screen, and that he saw it with her.<\/p>\n
So much goes on in my boy\u2019s brain he doesn\u2019t need to use words to express.<\/p>\n
As the \u201cTwo Front Teeth\u201d song comes on (which for some reason annoys me annually) I let myself think back over the last ten years we\u2019ve been bringing him and later his brother here, how stressful this outing used to be. Some years the show was packed and so we made it a priority to get to the planetarium absurdly early which guaranteed us good seats, but brought with it its own set of difficulties. Back in the day Justin had a really difficult time waiting in line, and with food and drink prohibited even a plentiful array of toys could not often deflect our son\u2019s desire to bolt. Often his father and I would be a sweaty mess even before they let us into the inner sanctum, but somehow once we got inside Justin always calmed down and reveled in the notes and colors of the show.<\/p>\n
He\u2019s always not only behaved there, but delighted in the experience. In turn he\u2019s delighted his parents as well.<\/p>\n
It being the end of the year and all I\u2019m at least trying to carve out some time for reflection (it\u2019s a goal), and as I think about how far we\u2019ve come in the ten years we\u2019ve made him a Jersey boy I realize how far we\u2019ve come with other outings as well. Back in the day I\u2019d return home bloodied and bruised from a trip to the boardwalk, my son\u2019s aversion to waiting in line evidenced by my colorful flesh. The pool at one point held no interest for him and was regarded as a well of torture. Our first attempt at horseback riding through a family event sponsored by POAC resulted in my boy protesting on that horse for the entire fifteen minutes, his indignation at having to ride the beast apparent for all to see. Trying to get him not to bolt out of the waiting room on a blood draw day (can\u2019t blame him for this one) was a Herculean effort I\u2019d almost fail.<\/p>\n
Trying to get him to eat anything that wasn\u2019t a carb was enough to send me to my own chocolate stash.<\/p>\n
And yet, almost a decade after we\u2019d attempted all of these outings my boy loves the rides, and will at least do one round around the pool without protest. I\u2019ve been told he\u2019s an amazing patient at Lab Corp, and his horseback riding lesson is the pinnacle of his week.<\/p>\n
Hell, the kid even eats lettuce.<\/p>\n
The point is, even when it was grueling, annoying, or frankly painful, we kept trying. We kept trying, but not because we wanted him to like the same things as his neurotypical peers. We did it in part because we wanted him to have interests other than playing the same thirty seconds of a movie on his DVD player (which we feel is fine for a while, but not all day). We mostly did it however because we felt if we kept on trying the kid would actually like these activities, that they would allow him to stretch and grow, and most importantly, make him happy.<\/p>\n
Eventually, we were right.<\/p>\n
And I guess my message to anyone just starting out on this autism path is keep trying. When Justin was really little and we lived in DC our world was so small, as literally just leaving the house would trigger an avalanche of tears. I remember how in the dead of winter I literally could not be cooped up one more day. I began what I dubbed \u201cmall madness \u201c, which began with me just driving to the parking lot and returning home, and ended with my kid after slow desensitization loving being walked around the mall and devouring those devilishly delicious Auntie Anne\u2019s pretzels that became my weakness too.<\/p>\n
Even before learning the tenets of ABA I was big on rewards.<\/p>\n
So perhaps this new year make getting out a goal, start trying new things even if they suck at first (and many will), and don\u2019t give up on widening both your child\u2019s world, and your own. My son is thirteen and severely autistic, and for the most part he is a delight to take anywhere, and enjoys where we go. It took patience and band-aids and lots of wine but my husband and I did it, and as I see my son\u2019s face light up as he\u2019s trotting away on his horse I know I\u2019ll never regret one moment of our struggles (not even the ones that needed Neosporin).<\/p>\n
My wish to you in the new year is plan for your outings (plans b, c, and d are good), and if anyone\u2019s offered you any help take them up on it and bring them along. Remember that neither Rome nor acclimating your autistic kid to the outside world were built in a day.<\/p>\n
And as Nike would say, \u201cjust do it.\u201d<\/p>\n
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