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It\u2019s now month five of watching Justin struggle with his \u201cepisodes,\u201d and after ruling out seizures and tumors and mitochondrial disorder (oh my!) we\u2019ve finally narrowed our options down to two different disorders. My husband and I are big second and third opinion people, so we\u2019ve consulted several different practitioners, and of course, they conflict in their opinions of what he has.<\/p>\n
God forbid there should be a blood test with anything associated with autism.<\/p>\n
Of course both issues are treated completely differently, and in the end after reading and watching videos and consulting with doctors in different disciplines Jeff and I had to choose which one we think he has (what fun!), and have started treatment accordingly.<\/p>\n
Because of course an ex-elementary school teacher and a higher ed consultant are experts in the field of autism-related disorders.<\/p>\n
Over the years we\u2019ve battled many conditions associated with Justin\u2019s autism- OCD, insomnia, aversion to eating, aggression. The truth is with most of these I was able to keep hope alive we\u2019d solve the issue (OCD however is a tenacious little bugger, he\u2019ll have that for life), primarily because I saw many of my friends go through these problems, and after weeks and sometimes months they were resolved. We\u2019ve always schlepped Justin to really good doctors because we\u2019ve found middle-of-the-road practitioners to be a waste of time, and since I had faith in them, I had hope we\u2019d resolve his problems too.<\/p>\n
Part of this is that I\u2019m older now, have been doing this dance for almost fifteen years, and people, I\u2019m tired. I laugh as I say this because I\u2019ll be doing it for thirty or forty more and it\u2019s a little early to let fatigue set in, but this is where I am. We\u2019ve started him on a new medication and have witnessed what seems to be improvement, with less improvement at school but some progress none-the-less. His school is wonderful and collects data on his episodes daily, and for the past few days I\u2019ve been a junkie, waiting eagerly for him to get off the bus so I can get my data fix.<\/p>\n
It\u2019s the little things.<\/p>\n
The truth is with autism-related disorders it can sometimes take months or even longer to resolve the issue, and sometimes it can\u2019t be resolved. There are numerous medications to try on the path we\u2019ve chosen. If this doesn\u2019t work and we address the other potential issue it will be months before we wean him off the medication that might be the culprit.<\/p>\n
There are no quick fixes with autism.<\/p>\n
But I\u2019m going to shuffle out that hope, drag it kicking and screaming into the light, because frankly the alternative sucks. I will hold on to any period of time where he\u2019s just himself, that loving, affectionate, smiling, huggy kid who just wants peace, juice, and some form of entertainment to keep him occupied. I have to conjure up that faith because I have a responsibility to him, to my other kid, and to myself to stay healthy and open to the possibility that he will, indeed, get better.<\/p>\n
We will wait. We will watch. We will hope for resolution, because the ramifications of this for Justin\u2019s future are huge.<\/p>\n
And I will hold on to every time my boy smiles at me and embraces me with his true self.<\/p>\n
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