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It\u2019s only January 3rd, and I\u2019m already wavering on my \u201creduce chocolate\u201d resolution.<\/p>\n
Maybe some things are for the best.<\/p>\n
Generally I am a person who takes New Year\u2019s Resolutions seriously. The holiday reminds me of my teaching days, when the end of August usually found me setting up my classroom, excited about a clean slate with my incoming students. Most of the time that enthusiasm, that drive to make this an even better year than the one before, lasted until June.<\/p>\n
There were a few years however when my charges brought me to my knees by October.<\/p>\n
I usually find my January resolutions last for at least a few months, sometimes longer. This is the first year in many, many years losing weight is not one of them (stress is a bitch but great for my BMI). I still have my resolutions for 2018 written on a scrap of paper on my desk, mostly for the boys. I had half a dozen for each, and got to three and two respectively for each kid.<\/p>\n
Not a bad haul after all.<\/p>\n
But this year I decided to change things up a bit. Most years I am very specific in my \u201cimprovement desires,\u201d but this year I went old school.<\/p>\n
My resolution for 2019 for this family, and for me, is just to be happy.<\/p>\n
I know, it probably sounds like I\u2019m slacking a bit (and maybe I am, but frankly the last two years have been hell, and I\u2019m finding I don\u2019t rebound as easily between disasters as I used to in my youth). So this year, I\u2019m keeping it simple- bliss, in whatever form that takes for every member of my clan, is the goal.<\/p>\n
And although I\u2019m writing this for my brothers and sisters who have been in the autism game as long as I have, or much longer, I\u2019m also writing this for my brethren who are just starting out, or any of you in crisis with your child.<\/p>\n
Those of you who have just received a diagnosis for your child, or are realizing they will probably reside on the more severe end of the spectrum, or are just thinking about reaching out to Early Intervention to have your son evaluated, this is for you. If your kid is taller than you now and aggressive or self-injurious and you often contemplate how to get through the hour, not the day, this is for you.<\/p>\n
No matter what is going on with your child, you have to take care of yourself, and find some \u201chappy.\u201d<\/p>\n
For years, I didn\u2019t do this. I threw myself headlong into being my eldest son\u2019s ABA therapist when he was eighteen months old because Early Intervention barely exists in Virginia, and I kept up a grueling pace for two years before we moved back to NJ, no fun in sight. When my son has moved through what I call his \u201crelentless cycles\u201d of insomnia, aggression, extreme OCD, etc. I focused entirely on him, never thinking of my needs. Doctors visits got postponed; exercise was a thing of the past.<\/p>\n
Fun, of any kind, was not on my radar.<\/p>\n
I have people new to the autism journey ask me often if I could go back and change things, what would I alter. Aside from firing a few therapists a lot sooner than I did, I can honestly say the one big thing I would change is the fact I didn\u2019t take care of myself, and allowed myself very few opportunities for respite.<\/p>\n
That choice has affected my health, some friendships, and my overall outlook on life, which has generally been disgustingly positive.<\/p>\n
I have vowed never to let that happen again.<\/p>\n
So please, whatever is going on with your child at this moment, do whatever it takes to create some \u201chappy\u201d for yourself. Go beyond that daily run or that gynecologist exam- figure out what brings you joy, and move mountains to allow yourself those hours just for you. If a neighbor, friend, or relative has offered to babysit, take them up on it (even if it\u2019s a disaster you\u2019ll get out once!). Remember, your family and partner need a whole, happy, and healthy person in their lives- do whatever it takes to get there, and leave those other resolutions in the dust. They\u2019ll be there waiting for you down the road, but you are the priority- you come first.<\/p>\n
Do whatever it takes to find your happy.<\/p>\n
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